even though class is over

i still feel like this is an excellent way for me to get my thoughts out there. sometimes i think getting to see what youre thinking makes it slightly more real. like maybe since other people can see your thoughts they can tell you that you're wrong, crazy or completely have the world figured out. I would not fit in any of those categories. maybe a i would dip into the crazy pool, but i dont think i would make that big of a splash.

whats going on in my world? matt and i just got back from our california adventure. san fransisco up to crescent city. through eureka and up to medford, bend and finally ftown. we went to his grandfathers celebration of life and now we're back to boise doing the same ol same. but i can feel the change. matt has drill for the next two weeks. even though they're the come home at night kind, i know that this is the beginning to how its going to feel when he's actually gone. i can hardly believe all the changes coming. it feels like they're racing to me and im still in the pit. i wish life would at least give me time to put my helmet on.